Happy or sad: I have lost 300 gms

I went to gym today and worked out on my cardio for an hour. It felt good although with the flu I found I struggled with the rower especially. All in all I was back after 3 weeks and it felt real good.At the end of the workout I weighed myself. The moment of reality had hit. I wondered if it was a good idea or not. I had my period, was the first weigh in, I had gone a bit over on the fat section last 2 days as per calorie king - although still within calorie limit....I bit the bullet and stood on the weighing machine and at that moment all I wanted was a decrease - just not an increase! The machine told me I had lost 300gms and I tried 4 or 5 times just for good measure. Each time the same result. I have to admit I felt a twinge of disappointment but had to turn it around telling myself that it was a loss and I should try harder next week and I will see better results.My husband M who came to pick me up from gym consoled me saying I really needed to see this as a plus as it was a chip I had done away with and needed to appreciate that. I was trying to change a lifetime of food abuse and it was like walking all over again. I felt sort of half and half by the time I got home. So I guess I still dont know how to feel about the loss of 300 gms.Blogs I read when I got home depict sagas similar to mine. I know it is going to be a hard road but I also know that before I get to India I want to lose between 25-30 kilos just to shock the pants off the family, feel great about our honeymoon - which by then will be a year late, try things comfortably and by that I dont mean just clothes - I mean activities too - I just want my holiday in November to be a celebration of health and happiness. I learn so much from the blogs i read especially Dietgirl and Bridging the gulf.The one thing I have learnt is that we all have our own individual path in our journey to weightloss. What may work for one might not necessarily be workable for another and in this journey I am also working out MY path. My knowledge of fitness is above average and is an interest and passion. I voraciously try and keep abreast of fitness information. When I listen to the so called Gurus of fitness, I realise I know what they are saying, the information they are giving me is not new to me. I am done with working off someone elses formulas - Weightwatchers, Donna Aston (fitness guru in Australia) and trainers and the like. While they have the advantage of being specialists in their fields, none of them know my body and mind like I do. What works for client 1, might not work for client one million and I often find that sometimes one can become just a number. I have decided that I will use the tools these businesses have to offer - tools that I choose or have interest in such as extra cardio or weights etc.I could wax on and on but it is time to get to bed. Night all